Past, Present & Future

                                                                        

Living in the present is hard to do know matter who you are. We will always reflect on our past memories both our joys and sorrows. We look forward to our future reflecting on what we want our life to be like at certain stages, and get anxious about the outcome. Life is so complex! Spiritual alchemy can take years to achieve as we go through the process of breaking down all the multi levels of ourselves. This work requires work on the past you can't just bury the past. There is so much confusion on this topic in our "new age" culture. Everywhere you turn meme's are passed on from one person to another. It's as if there isn't any thought taken, we just embrace anything we feel sounds true, positive, helpful or spiritual. What exactly is spirituality? Spirituality should be different for each of us as, we all have our own inner knowledge, and light. We shouldn't try to organize it, follow propaganda, or be something we aren't. On the surface it seems innocent enough, we tell ourselves we are just becoming closer to embracing our earth, spreading joy, and positive encouragement.

What we are successfully doing is burying things so much deeper into our subconscious that it may take more than ones lifetime to correct. When we see for example, an artist has created a masterpiece that is very dark, distraught and not warm and cheerful we assume that person needs help. In truth they are working their way through their inner alchemy, working on balancing their shadow.  Navigating their way through those deeply buried realms of the subconscious to bring forth a responsibility to themselves, which in turn will show them how heavenly they are. For example yesterday I discovered how jealous my shadow is. I couldn't take the fact that my son was with his wife, and dogs on a hike or my daughter after Easter brunch played a game with her boyfriend, and his family while I sat on the couch. My point is instead of living in this beautiful present moment of my daughters home, and  the delicious brunch she prepared I'm deep in this irrational behavior. My son has become so much like me, out being close to nature, and just being with his wife, enjoying his Easter his way, I smile momentarily and yet that jealousy is still there.

My children are beautiful reflections of me, and yet instead of being present in the moment I'm letting my ego run the show. These behaviors come from my imbalance within myself, the only way to freedom is to dive straight down into the part of my brain that has buried my life experiences so deep. Work on "self" is the key to serenity. It's not like just looking out at the sunshine would rid me of my shadow, nor putting a temporary positive thought in that moment. Reading endless meme's about positivism, and spirituality could not change the outcome. Everything is inside of us, we just need to know how to work through the many layers to the truth, in that moment is when the healing begins. You can live in the moment once you learn how to integrate your soul, transform yourself into a pure state. Now you can live in the "present".

MLMarchese