Healing Childhood Wounds
By Michele Marchese
“Heaven is within you” means different things to each of us our Divine connection is unique to our soul. What I may see as golden light, angels abound, and my deceased family waiting for me, you will see differently. Your hearts connection is yours, and everyone else has their vision of what Heaven is. You are the connected, the key to feeling this divine connection is to acknowledge that both Heaven and nature are connected to each of us. We may choose a different path and yet we will reach the same result. No matter religion on non religious belief, we are all one within the cosmos.
My journey took 56 years, the last five years have been my awakening. Why did it take so long, it could have came sooner; however' I wasn’t ready to receive the gift. No matter how hard it is, we all have to start at our beginning, and that is childhood. We need to have inner child healing and, then move onto the years leading up to the beginning of our yearning to feel this connection. For myself it was as if I was on earth living in two different realms, on the one half was my life as I lived it with my family, the other half was a complete withdrawal of everything connected to me here on earth. During this time my mind was “away” my focus was on knowledge of religion and spirituality. I was consumed with finding change, I desperately wanted to feel a closer connection. The only thing I focused on was how to live a life of love, gratitude, and divine connection. It was as if I had an addiction to never ending knowledge. It all sounds so beautiful and it truly is. I don’t want to misguide you though, it is a very rough path to follow, it requires you to look at yourself. You will have to look at yourself and rid yourself of everything that isn’t done out of love. Shed your ego driven ways! Mine were control, anger, and manipulation. I started out by telling myself to stop this behavior as if it could be that easy. No matter how hard I tried I was back to my old ways, I finally asked everyone in my family to truly let me know what they didn’t like about me. It was very hard to hear and it made me cry. It wasn’t easy to hear how many family fights I caused through manipulation and control. After a day of feeling miserable I decided to figure out when I started feeling the need to control. Control came from a direct childhood connection. My mom would leave me with family or friends for weeks, and never return. Mom got remarried, and my baby brother came into our family, I loved him so much! Our parents physically and verbally fought all the time. The fights when he was a toddler were awful. I always had to hold him, cover his ears, and tell him everything will be okay as we were huddled in the corner in fear. His tears broke my heart. All of this trauma was buried deep within my subconscious. It manifested as a way of controlling and manipulating everything in my life. In my mind by controlling the situation I couldn’t be hurt, nor my loved ones. In fact I was hurting in my own way, myself and others. Inner child healing through facing the darkness is the first step. Consider how much your life will change when you release those energetic cords that confine you. Through the darkness you will emerge into the light, much like a lotus comes out of muddy water. I do recommend Inner Child Healing through Spiritual Coaching.
My journey took 56 years, the last five years have been my awakening. Why did it take so long, it could have came sooner; however' I wasn’t ready to receive the gift. No matter how hard it is, we all have to start at our beginning, and that is childhood. We need to have inner child healing and, then move onto the years leading up to the beginning of our yearning to feel this connection. For myself it was as if I was on earth living in two different realms, on the one half was my life as I lived it with my family, the other half was a complete withdrawal of everything connected to me here on earth. During this time my mind was “away” my focus was on knowledge of religion and spirituality. I was consumed with finding change, I desperately wanted to feel a closer connection. The only thing I focused on was how to live a life of love, gratitude, and divine connection. It was as if I had an addiction to never ending knowledge. It all sounds so beautiful and it truly is. I don’t want to misguide you though, it is a very rough path to follow, it requires you to look at yourself. You will have to look at yourself and rid yourself of everything that isn’t done out of love. Shed your ego driven ways! Mine were control, anger, and manipulation. I started out by telling myself to stop this behavior as if it could be that easy. No matter how hard I tried I was back to my old ways, I finally asked everyone in my family to truly let me know what they didn’t like about me. It was very hard to hear and it made me cry. It wasn’t easy to hear how many family fights I caused through manipulation and control. After a day of feeling miserable I decided to figure out when I started feeling the need to control. Control came from a direct childhood connection. My mom would leave me with family or friends for weeks, and never return. Mom got remarried, and my baby brother came into our family, I loved him so much! Our parents physically and verbally fought all the time. The fights when he was a toddler were awful. I always had to hold him, cover his ears, and tell him everything will be okay as we were huddled in the corner in fear. His tears broke my heart. All of this trauma was buried deep within my subconscious. It manifested as a way of controlling and manipulating everything in my life. In my mind by controlling the situation I couldn’t be hurt, nor my loved ones. In fact I was hurting in my own way, myself and others. Inner child healing through facing the darkness is the first step. Consider how much your life will change when you release those energetic cords that confine you. Through the darkness you will emerge into the light, much like a lotus comes out of muddy water. I do recommend Inner Child Healing through Spiritual Coaching.
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